Josh

I’m going to get the pretty charts out of the way first. Really, I spend way too much time working, not enough time relaxing, and I swear too much. I also drink way too much coffee. My life is very hectic right now and I don’t see that changing for a couple of weeks at [...]

Bon Iver - Skinny Love
I told you to be patient / I told you to be fine / I told you to be balanced / I told you to be kind / Now all your love is wasted? / Then who the hell was I? / Now I’m breaking at the britches / And at [...]

As my cousin pointed out on my Facebook wall, I’ve been seriously neglecting my blog. That is pretty sad considering that a lot has been happening lately that I would love to write about. Sadly, I don’t have time. I’m going to seriously buckle down and start cranking out some posts. I’ll make time, write [...]

Next to the speakerphone is a fat daily planner book they keep full of things for me to get done. They want me to account for my next ten years, task by task. Their way, everything in your life turns into an item on a list. Something to accomplish. You get to see how your [...]

Well, hopefully, but it’s looking pretty good right now. As of a few days ago, I’m looking to move out of my parents house and getting an apartment. Not by myself, I’m moving in with my friend, Ricardo. He’s returning to Olean to finish up school and asked me if I wanted to get a [...]

So really, what is there to say? Nothing. I don’t have a computer. My sister is using mine, she can’t find the keyboard or the mouse so that I can fix hers, and my dad is trying to keep me off of his computer. Why is he trying to keep me off the internet you [...]

Hanson - Blue Sky
Butch Walker - Maybe It\’s Just Me
The past couple of weeks I’ve been spending most of my time with my family. It’s really weird because I don’t ever recall spending this much time with them, even when I lived at home previously. And I don’t just mean my parents; I’m talking sisters, [...]

Lately I’ve been writing a lot about how my parents were in denial about my situation. At first it angered me, then I just realized that they needed their time to figure things out and I was okay with it. But now it seems like they’ve moved on to a different “stage” and they’ve been [...]

I’ve spent most of my life running; running from the past, running towards something I thought would be better, running away from problems that I should have dealt with, and running from the people I should have embraced. I’ve broken a lot of promises, I’ve spoken more empty words than should have ever crossed my [...]

As Lisa recently wrote, we talked last week about how there isn’t a single person who knows everything about us. It’s not so much that I’m afraid one person, or a few, will hurt me. I’m more afraid of the fact that eventually, I’ll be the one to fuck up. I’ll be the one to [...]

I called the doctor today, the one that saw me in the ER. They got the results back from my chest x-ray and told me that I needed to get a CT Scan on my chest. They told me that the X-ray showed that my heart was “extremely enlarged” and that there was an “abnormality” [...]

I’ve been blessed to have a lot of great things in my life and a lot of great people. I’ve also had some not so great things in my life, but that doesn’t really matter right now.
When I was in the hospital they ran some tests to see what the hell was wrong with me. [...]

For the past 4-5 days our internet connection has been virtually non-existent. It would work for about 30 minutes once every couple of hours, but starting Friday, I couldn’t really connect for more than five. We called Time Warner about it, but they said they couldn’t see anything wrong. Oh really? Then why hasn’t it [...]

Well, I know we forgot to pay the cable bill, but we also thought that someone had paid last month’s bill. Mostly because he said he would pay it. Guess he didn’t. Oh well. So I’ve been without the internet for two whole days.
ZOMG! No Internets?!?!?
Yea…it was hard. I read a book, I cleaned out [...]