Josh

The Weepies - Happiness
Let me preface this by saying that this is not being written because there’s someone that I want to date. A lot of people will read this and assume that it’s about someone, but it’s not, I assure you. Actually this is based on conversations I’ve been having with some friends.
I enjoy [...]

I’m shaking as I write this, not for any particular reason, well maybe there is, but that’s neither here nor there. I’ve been away from the computer for the past few days, reading, thinking, trying to live normally for once. I hopped on the computer today to write a post, the topic which escapes me [...]

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I’ve spent most of my life drifting and wasting day after day trying to find something that I thought was missing from my life. It turns out what I was looking for was in my possession all along, hidden away, waiting for me to discover the fact that I’m [...]

I don’t think there’s anyone that knows the amount of pain or hurt that I’ve faced because of my parents inability to accept things they cannot change, show their love, deal with their own problems and anger, and forgive. I know I’ve hurt my parents as well, which is why it’s taken me so long [...]

I’ve spent most of my life running; running from the past, running towards something I thought would be better, running away from problems that I should have dealt with, and running from the people I should have embraced. I’ve broken a lot of promises, I’ve spoken more empty words than should have ever crossed my [...]

As Lisa recently wrote, we talked last week about how there isn’t a single person who knows everything about us. It’s not so much that I’m afraid one person, or a few, will hurt me. I’m more afraid of the fact that eventually, I’ll be the one to fuck up. I’ll be the one to [...]

I called the doctor today, the one that saw me in the ER. They got the results back from my chest x-ray and told me that I needed to get a CT Scan on my chest. They told me that the X-ray showed that my heart was “extremely enlarged” and that there was an “abnormality” [...]

I’ve been blessed to have a lot of great things in my life and a lot of great people. I’ve also had some not so great things in my life, but that doesn’t really matter right now.
When I was in the hospital they ran some tests to see what the hell was wrong with me. [...]