I wish I wasn’t the way I am, or, I wish I wasn’t such an asshole
I last posted on Saturday about Mandy’s cookies and CD’s. I’ve concluded that her cookies are absolutely amazing and some of the best cookies I’ve ever had and her CD’s (both 1 and 2) are the best mixed CD’s ever. No, I’m not sharing.
Christmas Eve I spent with my family at my grandparents. It was uneventful. I was hoping that I would get to see my cousin’s baby, but he called just as we were finishing dinner to say that he had the flu and wouldn’t be coming. Later that night my grandma called my parents at around 11 or Midnight to tell them that my cousin was in the ER.
I fell asleep on the couch, because that’s what I do now. I sleep on the couch. My sister woke me up at 6am to open presents. I already knew exactly what I was getting. Jeans, a pair of cargo pants, a hoodie, a superman tshirt, and a book. The book wasn’t one I would have bought for myself, and to be honest, the only reason my parents bought it for me was so that my mom could read it too. So, really, it wasn’t my present at all.
Later, my dad started telling me that I should go to church and talk to a priest and that maybe if I believed in God that I wouldn’t have such a fucked up life. He told me that I needed religion. Yea, you don’t know me at all. But that doesn’t surprise me since about 80% of the time I’m talking to him he doesn’t listen, and the other 20% that I talk to him and he listens he only half listens.
My cousin went into ICU. He had pneumonia and the flu. The doctors gave him some sort of pain killer for his chest pain and his blood pressure dropped suddenly and it was severely low. My aunt was babysitting the baby from that point and wouldn’t be able to come to Christmas dinner (lasagna). My mom and dad thought we should bring them a pan of lasagna so they won’t have to cook. So, I got to see the baby but she was sick, so no holding the baby. She’s so cute. Makes me want to have kids.
So, that’s pretty much all I did. We ate lasagna, my cousin is now feeling better and is no longer in ICU, and we watched movies. By the way, Brian, I didn’t get to watch A Scanner Darkly because the DVD wouldn’t load and when I went to take it back they didn’t have another copy. Bleh. Hopefully I’ll get to watch that tonight along with The Last Kiss.
Starting tomorrow, I won’t be around much for awhile, around a week or two, because I need to clear my head and think some things over. Or rather, I need to keep myself busy because I can’t think about Gaby this week. It’s driving me nuts. If something important happens and you need to contact me, your best bet is to call me. My number can be found on my Facebook profile, at least I think, and if not then I’ll be sure to post it up there. It also might be in the whois but I can’t remember if it’s this number or the one I had in San Diego or my old cell number. Anyway. that’s it.
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I too am flying through some turbulance right now since 3 of my good friends basically said they want notthing more to do with me. This feels really bad but it also has given me a prompt to change myself and become less of a jerk. We may moth be jerks: but you’re the one who’s in 9rules. Congratulations! (I’m crossing my fingers that I’m on the questions list)
Hey - welcome to 9rules! Something tells me (maybe it’s the mutual love for Kierkegaard & Nietzsche) that I’ll be coming here often. Bookmarked, for certain
In any event, quite glad to have you in the ranks!
@ Arthus: It’s always hard when your friends say stuff like that. I hope you get into 9rules, just remember there’s always next time and you know I’m on your side.
@ Phil: Thanks for stopping by! I read your site often (I’m a lurker) and am glad that I’m joining in on some good company.