Josh

i’ve made up my mind. i’m going to tell my parents tomorrow (or later today) that i’m going to san diego. i think they will be more upset with the fact that i took so long to tell them than the actual news of me going away for christmas but oh well.

19 more days and i’ll be there. it’s kind of hard to believe. i’m super excited though. nervous, but excited. i mean, i won’t have that much money and the money i do have will be for food pretty much. so gaby and i will have to just chill pretty much, which is fine with me. i just want to get to know her better.

i’m starting to feel better. i can finally breathe halfway decent and i can walk around without shortness of breath. i’m still a bit stuffy and i still have a cough but i should be ok by the time i head on out to san diego. i have to clean my room and get everything halfway organized or else it’ll be a pain when i start to pack. i know, i still have 19 days but if i don’t get started now then i will forget things like i always do.

i talked to ricardo today and we’re still a go with the plans we had to go to the airport together. i’m going to take him out to lunch, a cheap lunch, then head to the airport. i’m trying to get in touch with a couple friends that live in buffalo but they are always away and i don’t have their new phone numbers. oh well. i’m sure i’ll be seeing them or hearing from them soon because i’d like to take them out to lunch with ricardo and i. i don’t think they have heard the news that i’m a lesbian and i want to tell them because they are kick ass friends of mine.

it’s hard to believe that only a few short months ago i was still in the closet. it’s gone by fast and i’m starting to get really comfortable with it. i’m a lot happier than i was when i was in the closet and trying to hide things from people.

tomorrow i have to go to my cousin’s store and talk to her about getting that job in january. i want to get that all setup before i go to san diego. i looked online for her website and i found it and i’ll share the link with you. i don’t really know what job i’ll be taking on. i don’t think it’ll be directly related with the customers, which is a good thing because i’m not comfortable around a lot of people. i’ll probably be working in the factory, which will be kick ass. i’m most comfortable in that situation. my grandpa and my mom talked to my cousin and told them about my experiences with factory work as well as my computer skills so i’m guessing i’ll either get an office job or a factory job. i’ll be happy with either.